i washed my soul tonight of my bitterness. the taste of defeat and anger has been washed from my tongue. no longer will i dwell on the evil of the past. it is not healthy. it is not normal.

it's just not right.

when you get bitter, anger is a big part of the way you express your bitterness. you don't care much about yourself or others in the world around you. you make crass comments. you point and laugh at dipsy blonde girls who fall over nothing in the middle of 3rd street. you bark evil comments at those who spend money at the gap. you hiss at the womein in L.A. that try to hard to fit in. you just get - evil.

you basically say fuck it all with an evil grin.

but tonight i made a real effort to not be that person.

i refuse to be someone intimidating and ignorant.

i make this promise on everything sweet and good in my life right now. i make this promise on the lovely air that he breathes in every day. never.. ever.. ever again will i be that way.. i swear.