i'm always sick
ulcers.. are the most horrible things that can plague the human body. i hate them.. they're horrible. i want to cry :(
sometimes you say things, hear things, know things or learn things and you go "exactly" because it all works, right?
i'm always sick
midi files are from the devil
it's way too early to be awake
i think the whole world has gotten it's britches tied in a knot about this whole napster thing and i decided to make one more comment about it.
if the state of music today is sisqo's thong song... then hit me over the head and leave me to die in some ditch.
if i had you on my icq list.. you should add me again or something. i'm too lazy to add people. if you want to talk to me.. i'm there.
just to keep a record: i was right. please note i like being right. it's a nice feeling :)
what i don't get about people..
last night, with no computer to distract me, i had conversations. i came to a few conclusion about myself.. they might not be as great as ruzz's but still.. now if only i could stop filling up my 40 gig hard drive with crap and write about it..
wanna here a really fucking funny story?
obviously not everyone was as excited about SDRE playing tonight and since i will not and have never gone to a show alone.. me and kevin are going to customize my computer.
pardon me while i get really pissed off:
i.. umm just got a blue mountain card from. richard. it has to be richard.. only richard knew the whole penisal thing. i'm rambling for no reason because i can. i also registered emotionalslut.com at namezero.com just because i thought it would be taken. it wasn't.. now namezero and i own it for two years. kinda cool heh :)
kiss (k
who's playing at the palace tonight? who? SDRE? no way. who's playing at the whiskey on saturday? WEEZER? no way. who's playing at the glasshouse next saturday? J.E.W? OH MY LORD.
napster, the word, has been blogged over 180 times in since 8:17 last night [PST]
confessions of an emotional slut and shes NOT sorry. oh what a bad girl.
i enjoy watching The View. not because it's informative or anything they want it to be but because it's so fluffy.
assume \As*sume"\ - to be arrogant or pretentious; to claim more than is due; to suppose as a fact;
i was just thinking about this exact thing....
umm where did jenn go? i bet the secret service found her out and made her delete her blog because it was some sort of "conflict of interest" or thought she was going to give out al gore website secrets.
i miss my baby ferrets in new york... now they're not even babies anymore.. and i doubt when i get back there that they'll remember me.. that's depressing. i like to think that they're in new york with my mom, sleepin in my bed, sniffing through my dusty things and wondering when i'm gonna come home..
i think they sell soap so well these days. i have lime shower gel and somehow they make it sound so good.
Death: the high cost of living is such a nice comic related thing to read while avoiding working. i so missed reading this. especially near the end.
umm i dunno but i think some people have way too much free time.
oh miss. credit card.. thank you for helping me to purchase clothes i don't need. thank you for not being like my mother was when i was 14 and asking me "do you really need that skirt?". thank you so much miss. credit card. thank you.
if my life were tv show what would i call it? survivor? maybe.. because lately i feel that's all i'm doing, surviving. i'm not living, though i try, i'm just surviving. oh well.
it's so odd how relationships can change at the drop of a hat. someone can go from being this great dynamic character in your life to remaining perfectly static and .. just not there anymore. sadly i have no idea how to handle it all.. i'm pathetic.
lovestruck cinnamon lip crayon. i own it. i payed for it. i use it on a semi-regular basis. just an observation.. if you don't get it.. it's ok. i understand.
"when i let go of your throat sweet throttle
6 am to 12 pm. hours and hours of staring at macromedia flash.. hours and hours of staring at graphics. hours and hours of screaming at my computer and to certain people on the phone. hours and hours of realizing i have talent that i have NEVER used here.
as if it's not already clear to you,.. i'm an emotional slut. what does that mean? think about it.. get back to me.. it's not that hard.
dinner was expensive. ill never pay 2.60 for a regular old coffee ever again. i hate when places do that. note: men/boys/women with table manners are so nice.. well except when someone *coughkevincough* let out a loud burp.. well that wasn't so nice.
personal revelation of the day: i'm a bad friend. i'm the worst kind of friend to have.. trust me on that.
don't tell me you actually write a journal entry yana? YES YES I DID! woohoo. i found something to say.. too bad it's just to diss on myself. but still.. i think it's nicely written. i guess.
tonight i asked kevin if he'd ever called a woman a ho, slut .. etc. he told me no and i laughed. how was it possible that he hasn't? most men have.. i'll admit i think most of the men in my life have called women that in my presence. but kevin stuck his ground and said he never has..
some people, like me, just use html to create an interface for sharing their ideas or experiences. you know basic tables, crap my mom could create. but some people share their ideas through the html they create.. or something like that..
i will reach inside me and get the real yana out. i will show her to the world. i will let you see her. i will.. i promise.
i've never had a hero before.. i think i may be discovering one inside you. thank you..it gives me hope.
if life gives you lemons and you're suppose to make lemonade.. what if life gives you tomatoes? do you make ketchup?
5 hours of sleep and still i can stand.
if, as my best friend says, i like the things that are bad for me.. why does it feel soo good when i'm doing it? granted it feels bad when it's all over but everything feels bad when it ends..
i hate people who try and tell me how to punctuate my journal entries, these entries, anything i write. punctuation is part of my "artistic license" or whatever you want to call it.
ok i had to update a post before.. i did. yay for me.
just one more little question
i went around dissing "blogging" or whatever you want to call this about a month ago.. now i realize why i "blogged". it's so much easier to expose a nerve or yell on the internet on a webpage then it is to say how you feel in an e-mail or face to face to someone.. you can always delete a post after you feel better .. or the person you're ranting about might never read it..
thank the lord for nice people like crystal telling me the project page was blank or i would have never fucking known. i don't know how it got blank but still..
i hate getting e-mails from people that are upsetting. it's like what did i do? when you don't know what you did but the tone of the e-mail is just evil. the worst part is how do you reply to those e-mails? do you smile and ask "hey what did i do?" or do you just ignore it and hope they got it all out of their system?
i added a poll because i really am that bored. it's the ultimate boredom poll. don't cheat.. what would be the point?
i needed to say that this site is just.. very nice. i dunno if it's the colors or the whatever.. but it's nice and it looks the same in netscape as it does in IE. sweet.
someone inform me as to why i was outside for an hour and now i want to faint? why the hell is it so fucking hot out? oh yeah it's july. i keep forgetting that.
i agree with ariel. i also hate that commercial with the girl who talks about going to visit her sister in college and she's got that annoying curl thing sticking out of the side of her head. i want to kick her in the head.
i hate people who try and tell me they use notepad to create their pages and then you go and see their source all their tags are all uppercase which is usually what a cheapass html editor would do. i'm not here to insult all the people who do press caps lock on their computer and TYPE ALL THEIR TAGS LIKE THIS. but still if you use an html editor don't be ashamed.. for god's sake.. it's just html.
aryn is so silly. i don't have free time.. that's the sad part.. :\ i just don't sleep heh. doesn't everyone love the green doctor scrub color aryn has going on over there today? for some reason it reminds me of that tainted love song commercial in the hospital and umm yeah..
i love brushing my teeth. i have to stop myself sometimes because it's so relaxing and it feels so good.. haha i'm such a dork.
i've been looking for this book i read last summer. it's about a two girls who move from somewhere to long island with their mother to live with her boyfriend who owns a limo company. the mother gets cancer and she dies.
all the beautiful people on 3rd street were so nice today. even the homeless people weren't as scary as they usually are. i shall try and forget how kevin knocked over a whole pile of books in the art books place.. because he doesn't count.